Today marks 4 weeks. Can you believe it’s been 4 weeks today since Ryan dropped me off at the airport in Panama City? Crazy huh? Yeah! So crazy. These past 4 weeks have been some of the most difficult, amazing, and spiritually growing weeks of my life. Literally. The Lord has rocked my world. In an amazing way. If you know me at all you know just how stubborn and hard headed I am. So for me it’s been rather difficult to surrender some things. He has brought me 100% out of my comfort zone and turned me upside down. And it’s only been 4 weeks. With 3 months left I can’t begin to imagine what’s in store.
This past week. I was struggling. Major. Ok, so I don’t care that everyone knows. I almost gave up and came home. Like we were looking at flights back to America. The first one we could purchase we were going to. Until, my mother. My sweet sweet mother who is by the way the most Godly woman I know decided to tell me how she felt about me leaving early. She wasn’t very happy. So this whole time I was praying for The Lord to just show me what He wanted. Because I could not for the life of me find joy or excitement in being here. And of course He wouldn’t have brought me to Africa if He didn’t want me here. But me being human and Kayla was struggling so hard with the fact of giving in and being like “ok, I’m here in Africa. For 3 more months. I will never have an opportunity like this again. Suck up missing America. And deal with it.” This was such a hard struggle for me. I didn’t want to accept the fact that The Lord had brought me here for this semester. So after my mother gave me some advice. I decided to stay. So 4 weeks in and I am just now actually fully surrendering to the thought of being here for 3 more months. Crazy? Yes. But through the past 4 weeks and through my struggle and doubt The Lord has taught me so much that I probably would not have learned if it wasn’t for the hardship. I would cry myself to sleep every night. Wishing for home. But I began to really cling to 2 Corinthians 4:16-18. And quickly realized I was making this trip about me. Not about what The Lord wanted to do in and through me. So as I lay on my bed typing this now I am so excited to say I’m here. I have finally arrived. I am fully 100% here. Spiritually, physically, emotionally, and mentally. 4 weeks in and I am just now getting here. But that’s ok. Cause through this The Lord has rocked my world. For the better.
But onto other great things! The Lord has given me and my friends an amazing witnessing/discipling opportunity. I don’t wanna give specifics just yet but were meeting with this girl Tuesday. And it’s a pretty major thing. So prayers are greatly appreciated. Also, we have been able to go to a few orphanages/children’s homes. And be praying that through all of this The Lord will clearly show me what my major needs to be. I’m stuck between social work and elementary education. Side note: African children are SO precious. I wanna bring one home. But for some odd reason I don’t think I could make it past customs. Haha.
Ohmygoodness! Yesterday me and some of my team went to this glass factory. (pics on fb) but we were able to walk this rope bridge. In between two huge cliffs. Probably the most adventurous thing I have ever done. While walking the back of my Chaco got stuck in a little bit of the wire. I seriously thought I was gonna fall. Ok, so maybe I had something to hold onto but we were so high up I thought I was gonna die. One of my teammates decided to yell “it’s ok if you fall you get to meet Jesus.” Which Is true. But I wanna get married and have a family. Also, two girls on my team play softball. So they have been playing for a local university. So I have been able to tag along and watch practices and games. And all I’m gonna say is African softball is nothing like American softball. They make up rules as they go. It’s very frustrating but funny at the same time.
Today. Oh today. First, church here starts crazy early. So I was up at 6 and at church by 7. So I was exhausted. And me and my roommate were locked out of our house. Or we couldn’t figure out how to get in. So our supervisor had to come do it. After an hour and a half of trying to get in. Then I went to open the door of my bedroom and my true love waits ring got caught on the handle, which jerked me back, broke the ring, and jammed my finger. My finger was so swollen I couldn’t get the ring off so after a half hour of ice I was able to pull the ring off and now it’s blue and has a knot. It hurts. But it’s kinda funny now to look back at it. Although, at the time I was crying to my roommate telling her my finger was broken. Lets be honest, I cried like a baby.
Anyway, this is enough for now. You know my heart, my struggles, and my needs. Please be in prayer for me, my team, and the Kenyans here. The elections are coming up at beginning of march and they tend to get very violent. So be praying for that and for Godly leaders to step up and that revival would begin in this country. There are so many different religions. It’s crazy to see. I mean at BCF we take worldview and yeah you may pass the class but sorry to tell ya you don’t know much of anything until you experience it first hand. That is all for now.